Passion

I watched a movie today. There was a line that I definitely applauded. It went something along the lines of, "Wealth, love, romance, the world- I can take you to movies that have all of that." The boy says in reply to the girl's question of, "What can you offer me?"

I love movies. I watch them with passion, I immerse myself in them, and when they are over I wish they were about me... most of the time. To romanticize your world to look just like the big screen, I wonder if everyone does that.

Just once I wish they would make a movie that I could look at and say, "Hey, that could totally be my life." But movies are too perfect to be real life, unless they are based on perfect people's lives. There seems to always be something missing. Some taste of human actuality. I wish I could find that. I wish I could taste it. But more importantly I wish I could be it.

That thing that everyone reaches for and no one quite attains. It's beautifully sad. It's tragedy in its utmost. And I would totally act if I could. Mind you, in my head I feel I would do well, but in center stage or in front of a camera crew, I fear I would fall short. I would rather romanticize what might be, than test what could.

Perhaps that is true tragedy.